broAshleyshere

My mom and i haven’t spoken in 3 days. Thank god.

I dont think my mom understands the defintion of selfish. Shes called me selfish 5 times this week and told me i dont help out. Meanwhile i’ve given her $100 this past week. She told me to go fuck myself and dont ever eat “her” food again. So fucking over this bullshit.

I have never dreaded going to this job. Now i do every single time.

I’m trying to hold up as best as i can. I hate feeling like this. I want it to stop so bad but it won’t. I wasn’t put on this earth to go through this, in fact no one expects to go through this hard of a time. My body has been reacting badly to everything i’ve eaten for the past 6 months and i get heartburn from even bread…i’m just too scared to go to the doctor. I was told it might be an ulcer but idk. I can’t stand the stress anymore. I can’t stand being a punching bag at work…at home…or in general. I want to move to another state and start a new life with a completely clean slate. This isn’t the “me” i know and i’m tired of feeling out of my body. I still have so much regret from lara’s death and missing my family.

My mom is such a fucking bitch i don’t care for once i’m working on mother’s day. I don’t even need to get her a gift cuz she already gets half my paychecks.